the pain the agony it hurts so bad in me why? why me? please help me he won't stop it won't stop why? what did I do? I trusted him I loved him why? why me? how could love turn into fear? why did hands wander there? why did eyes see those things? why? why me? why so many lies? why did I just a child have to experience such unimaginable dirt, wrong, things? what did I do to deserve the hurt from his hands?