Umeshwari No talks now. We have enough time for that. Now I want to lie in your arms and be loved. Tell me frankly; you are a seasoned man, have you loved other women, I mean the way you love me?
Shantnu I might have had some experience with fair sex, but love, I don’t remember even if my memory is lost! Fullness of love should have been there, had I loved someone!
Both sat in that condition till there were voices of approaching steps. She covered her body and went out. Gopi had brought their dinner. After finishing their meals of boiled vegetables and salad they went for a walk.
Umeshwari looked beautiful in slacks and top. Occasionally her cheeks would resemble the color of her royal apples, under whose blossoming they were passing by.
They went to their rooms early. At about ten in the night she came in his room through open doors and lay beside him. He turned his back and they were face-to-face, and automatically positioned to rest on his stretched right arm.
Both embraced each other in an intensity that spoke of their normalcy established in such a short span of time. She shied under his touches and avoided the direct touhnes. Having assimilated their body warmth, she made some tender probing. Her delicate sensitive touches sent his body crazy and she felt afraid when he….
Umeshwari You won’t molest me!
Shantnu No, my cherry. Don’t be afraid.
Umeshwari Don’t you want to …?
Shantnu No. You are so chaste and beautiful. I don’t want to soil you.
Umeshwari That is why I love you more. I have implicit faith in you. I can do; anything to please you.
Shantnu Even if I wanted sexual relation?
Umeshwari Even if I don’t like, but still I would do anything! Take me if you want.
Shantnu No, Umesh, I just want you, not your modesty. That is your amour. I don’t want to steel it away. Be calm and enjoy the moments.
Umeshwari I want to remember every moment, but I feel guilty about it.
Shantnu Why, my dear, why guilt feeling? You have done nothing unnatural?
Umeshwari Since childhood, I have felt that way. Don’t you feel sinful by lying with a person, with whom you are not lawfully wedded?
Shantnu Then, here is the cinch, you have also given dreadful names to natural acts!
Umeshwari It is natural between husband and wife. But sinful for others if they behave like that without being wed!
Shantnu Tell me what your problem is? Some nasty experience during childhood!
Umeshwari My parents were very religious. They were always engaged in God/Goddesses Puja (ritual worship) on every auspicious day. Morning-evening I had to read religious scriptures. My mother was very adept in them. One night, I shook out of a frightening dream and went to my parent’s room. What I saw was very sinful and had since been etched in my memory. I was then twelve and just had my first period. My mother was sleeping on my father and playing sinful games. I just stood there under the covers of the door curtains and watched their games to the finish. From then on I watched them regularly. They had a weekly routine. So every Saturday night, I watched them performing their lustful games.
I was studying in a convent school of Jesus and Mary. I talked to my class teacher who was a nun. She scolded me for peeping and also passed unpardonable strictures against my parents for being so sinful. Such acts she warned me were the acts of Satan.
Since that day to date, I see every male person as if he would pounce upon me and every woman with flaying legs waiting for sex! While talking to males I may be looking downwards but inwardly my mind is focused on their genitals. My modesty, my innocence and my ochre gown are only the shield I escape in. I have meditated and meditated. Gone thorough severest austerities and have been able also to attain some heights but inside I am burning with the fires of passion which creates in me the guilt feeling, which I am unable to overcome and thus keep balance. My guru was right in sending me with you. Perhaps he knew about me and my guilt. Here, I have bared my mind, my body before you. I love you, I love you. But my love is pure and pious. Please don’t misunderstand me. I have no body lust for you.
Shantnu I might have had some experience with fair sex, but love, I don’t remember even if my memory is lost! Fullness of love should have been there, had I loved someone!
Both sat in that condition till there were voices of approaching steps. She covered her body and went out. Gopi had brought their dinner. After finishing their meals of boiled vegetables and salad they went for a walk.
Umeshwari looked beautiful in slacks and top. Occasionally her cheeks would resemble the color of her royal apples, under whose blossoming they were passing by.
They went to their rooms early. At about ten in the night she came in his room through open doors and lay beside him. He turned his back and they were face-to-face, and automatically positioned to rest on his stretched right arm.
Both embraced each other in an intensity that spoke of their normalcy established in such a short span of time. She shied under his touches and avoided the direct touhnes. Having assimilated their body warmth, she made some tender probing. Her delicate sensitive touches sent his body crazy and she felt afraid when he….
Umeshwari You won’t molest me!
Shantnu No, my cherry. Don’t be afraid.
Umeshwari Don’t you want to …?
Shantnu No. You are so chaste and beautiful. I don’t want to soil you.
Umeshwari That is why I love you more. I have implicit faith in you. I can do; anything to please you.
Shantnu Even if I wanted sexual relation?
Umeshwari Even if I don’t like, but still I would do anything! Take me if you want.
Shantnu No, Umesh, I just want you, not your modesty. That is your amour. I don’t want to steel it away. Be calm and enjoy the moments.
Umeshwari I want to remember every moment, but I feel guilty about it.
Shantnu Why, my dear, why guilt feeling? You have done nothing unnatural?
Umeshwari Since childhood, I have felt that way. Don’t you feel sinful by lying with a person, with whom you are not lawfully wedded?
Shantnu Then, here is the cinch, you have also given dreadful names to natural acts!
Umeshwari It is natural between husband and wife. But sinful for others if they behave like that without being wed!
Shantnu Tell me what your problem is? Some nasty experience during childhood!
Umeshwari My parents were very religious. They were always engaged in God/Goddesses Puja (ritual worship) on every auspicious day. Morning-evening I had to read religious scriptures. My mother was very adept in them. One night, I shook out of a frightening dream and went to my parent’s room. What I saw was very sinful and had since been etched in my memory. I was then twelve and just had my first period. My mother was sleeping on my father and playing sinful games. I just stood there under the covers of the door curtains and watched their games to the finish. From then on I watched them regularly. They had a weekly routine. So every Saturday night, I watched them performing their lustful games.
I was studying in a convent school of Jesus and Mary. I talked to my class teacher who was a nun. She scolded me for peeping and also passed unpardonable strictures against my parents for being so sinful. Such acts she warned me were the acts of Satan.
Since that day to date, I see every male person as if he would pounce upon me and every woman with flaying legs waiting for sex! While talking to males I may be looking downwards but inwardly my mind is focused on their genitals. My modesty, my innocence and my ochre gown are only the shield I escape in. I have meditated and meditated. Gone thorough severest austerities and have been able also to attain some heights but inside I am burning with the fires of passion which creates in me the guilt feeling, which I am unable to overcome and thus keep balance. My guru was right in sending me with you. Perhaps he knew about me and my guilt. Here, I have bared my mind, my body before you. I love you, I love you. But my love is pure and pious. Please don’t misunderstand me. I have no body lust for you.