Guri when i read this, menu fer paatha lagya vi tohanu raat nu neeni kyon nahi see aundi. i had a feeling something was bothering you and here it is.
Jiddan tohade baaki veeran neh kiya, i totally agree with them. This is a turning point in your life. Every life has its ups and downs so please dont get disheartened. Zindagi ek saaf or siddi road nahi hai, there are bumps and turns and twists everywhere. Kash jeh eh life sachkhand waargi hundi, we would not be here in the first place.
Menu paatha vi thusi kaafi down feel karr reh because you've let go of alcohol. And i think the emotions and feelings you are experiencing right now are withdrawal symptoms. Jadon ek banda darru nu chadd dinda, oh nu bohat aukha lagg da and bohat waari depressed jehi feeling naal rehndi. These are all feelings to distract you and make you start drinking again. You just have to fight this Guri. Apni willpower strong rakh and after a while without alcohol, you will realize how much better your life is without it. Pehla Pehla taan aukha jaroor lagna, but i promise once you pull out of it, everything will be better.
Thusi friends di gall vi keeti, because now that you've quit, your crowd has changed and you feel alone. Guri ek gall samjo, assil vich saada koi friend nahi hai. Nobody here on earth or in our life is a true friend. Saada saacha dost hai Raab. Hamesha eh gall apne mann che rakho. Mein edda nahi kehni vi life nah enjoy karr. Jaroor karo. Thusi apna faarz taan poora karna hoya, and jinniya vi life's diyanduties aa, oh vi pooriya karniya. But yaad rakhna vi attach nahi hona es duniya naal. Ek din assi saariya neh chaad k chaale janna. Na saadi doulat naal janni, na paisa na family, na friends. We were born with nothing and so we shall leave with nothing. Eh duniya ek illusion hai. it is not our real home, temporary hai. And jo vi saade naal hunda, good or bad, yeh vi saab temporary hai. The sun always rises, and so the sun will rise in your life too Guri. Positive ravo and positive socho. Iss taaran apne mann che eh gall rakho vi saada asli ghar hai voh Raab waala. Yeh duniya nahi saada asli ghar or nah hi yeh saab lokh hai saade asli.
Apne app nu pucho, vi thusi kyon lonely feel karde? its because you feel you are missing something in your life. Jeh apa raab ji nu hamesha yaad karde, or raab nu hamesha apne mann and dil vich rakhde, fer jo marzi hove, kushi yaan takhleef, you will always feel that you have a best friend who is guiding you. Taan jeh assi raab nu sirf uhdo yaad karde jadon takhleef or dukhi hove, fer saanu vi dukh lagda. We should make God apart of our life, that way when you go through low points in your life, you will be able to fight and get through them easily.
Thusi gall keeti see vi mein apne aap nu change keeta family vaste and hun mein itna lonely feel karr reha. Dekho ji, jo vi assi karr deh, jo vi assi soch deh, there is good and bad side to it. Thusi apne aap nu kyon change keeta? Because you wanted to respect your parents and your family and because you care about them hunna? And on the other side you feel you have nobody and that you cant experience your own happiness. I have felt like this so many times Guri. you have no idea how difficult it is growing up in a western society with strict punjabi parents. Its very very difficult. But i reached a stage where i decided that my parents happiness was greater than mine, and jo vi mere ma baap soch deh, oh hamesha mere benefit li hi sochde and kaade vi mere vaste galat nahi soch deh. So put your trust in your parents and realize that jo vi oh tohade toon karvondeh, oh tohade benefit li aa, nuksaan li nahi. In the long run it will benefit you. Hamesha saanu discipline raakhni chydi apni life che and menu paatha its very very hard, but it must be done. Discipline is no easy thing.
Newton da ek law mann che aaunda ... "For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction." Joh vi thusi apni zindagi che karde or karna, jehra vi action lehnde, haar ek action da karma bann da. So whatever action you take, soch samaj k karo, vi bhai, ah action menu agge takhleef taan nahi karu? ah action kisse nu hurt taan nahi karu? Evaluate your every action this way. I know its hard to live a life like this, but if you want to minimize sadness this is one of doing it. So hamesha apne actions deh consequences vi yaad rakho.
A couple more points... you need to have objectives in your life. You need to sit down and do some soul-searching. Why are you here? what is your purpose in life? what do you want to do with your life. Life ek eh ho jehi cheez aa jehri bohat cheti naag di and at the same time bohat precious hai. Saanu Satguru da shukriya karna chyda vi oh na neh saanu kinna kuch ditta, kinna pyar ditta, or kinne ache dosts and family. In the same way, saanu vi kuch eh duniya li karna chyda. We must leave our special mark on this world. Thusi vi apne objectives labbo, vi joh vi mein karna chounda, is it logical and is it reasonable? Jeh raab tohade samne hunde, what would he think of your objectives? Iss taaran socho and develop a passion and pursuit it dear.
Last gall, saada mann ek bohat powerful cheez ya. Ek minute or ek din vich or ek saal vich saada mann saade toon kuch vi karaa saakda. Poori duniya di history vich assi kinne examples dekhe, jis vich ameer ameer rajeh maharajeh din baar din prisoners bann jaande. It also goes the other way, where a poor soul with nothing, becomes the most intelligent man in his state. Our mind is very powerful. All the emotions you are feeling everything is created by the mind. The mind can be your friend or it can be your enemy. That is up to you. you have to tame it, control it, so that it becomes your friend. Once it is on your side, fer its much easier to deal with life.
Your mind is not the master of you. YOU are the master of your mind.
I know mein bohat kuch likhya and i just really hope this helps you see another side of life and another side of how you are feeling. Jeh mein kuch galat falat likhya taan menu please maaf kardiyo but you are such a shining soul that is always happy and laughing and i always want to see you that way. I would have never written this much if i didnt know you, but because you are such an amazing friend to me and everyone else here, i wanted to write and help you any way that i could. Everyone here loves you Guri, strong ravo, and dont let your mind dictate your feelings. You are in control of your destiny and you can be anything you want to be. Your life is filled with endless opportunities, just like the night sky is filled with endless stars. Haar ek taara tera hai, make it what you want hun.
Love always,
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