^^ Sorry Girl, you are from a screwed up family background.......and it seems you married against the will of your parents and everything spurned from there-on
I wish you good luck, and wish you really get a true god............not the superficial emotional speeches....
At the end there is a saying in Punjabi: "Nava nava maulavi hamesa azzaan ucchi hi dinda hunda.....
"
also there is an english proverb: "The grass is always greener on the other side of fence".
Wish you good luck and hope you will not be a screwed-up parent to your kids.